December 4th, 2015.
I saw someone today, and he reminded me of you. I was excited, scared, and angry all within a minute. I didn’t know what to do with myself. When he talked, I heard your voice and I wanted him to keep on talking. But then I got scared. What if he was the same as you? Capable of doing the same things you did. It’s been two years and you’re still with me. Part of me never wants you to go. But I know you're bad for me. Maybe if I had him I would have you too. But I’d be safer. Or worse off. I don’t know. I hate you so much, but I want no one else. Please leave me alone. I want to move on.